What make me think of fallen for this guy, was it bc I was abused by my ex and He was controlling or was it bc I was hurt inside of my daddy leaving me for another family. But I made the choice and it wasn’t the right choice I slept with him, my parents didn’t know than but.. it’s so amazing the things you do when you young just to get attention or to fit in with the crowd but this is not my first time have sex it was at first with the guy who controlled me for about 4 yrs. I know you shocked right but I’ll have to tell the story because it might help another young mother out there to not make the same mistakes I’ll made I pray that you won’t.
Yes I was with a guy for 4 yrs it started out at age 13 and at first I was so excited in love at least i thought I was. I had nice jewelry, and we went to different places and I didn’t have to pay plus he bought me new pair of shoes. Now let me remind you that I was born in the hood where the outside looks good in the inside is a mess. Most people stunning like we really had it gone on but reality we didn’t. Any how let me get back to the story of 17yrs old and what led me to a life change. So with the guy who was my ex let just call him Tom, he made sure I was dress nice and got my hair done too. I wasnt to big on the fake nails but it look like everything was going good oh i forget to tell you he drove a car with big rims and loud music. Hmmm I know you want to know was he a doap boy? Well most of the guys was a doap boy but not all. Tom was a doap boy at a young age trying to fit in the hood but as I stayed in relationship Tom I didn’t know this other personality of like you can’t wear this, you can’t wear that why bc it’s to short. That’s how it started out but I thought he cared about me but in reality he was trying to control the way I dress. One day me and Tom went to a parade and I thought I was fly a sista had on white shorts, red and white, blue shirt that showed a lil bit of belly but not as much with my sandals and Tom let me wear his thick harbone necklace I was stun lol. But I was meeting up with Tom at the parade, I meet with him he didn’t say you look nice, your outfit is cute. His face was so serious I was like what’s wrong with you, no respond we walked up the street where nobody around did you know he put his hands on me and told me to go home and take that out fit off. Talking about a sista self esteem that hurted. To make the long story short the situation didn’t get better we had some good days but more bad days than at 17yrs old I let him go and moved on with a guy from high school that was flirt with me for about an year. It’s so amaze in high school you have so much fun and never think the covering up will come out in the light. So at 17 yrs old nobody home we had sex but we had protection on. But we was been sneaky and you know it’s not right, to be honest God don’t won’t us to have sex till we get married but the choices we make we have to deal with the consequences. Anyhow the new guy was my boyfriend after the flirting for a year we going to call him hmmm let’s see Will. Will was not controlling and He wasn’t no doap boy so we road to school together we graduated the same year but let me get back to the story lol. Okay 17 yrs old I admit we had sex but idk that the condemn broke and Will didn’t tell me. So I’m thinking everything is going good with us we ready to be junior we get alone , hang out and go out to eat when Will didn’t have to work. To make the long story short I was pregnant and Idk till my mom took me to the doctor to get my depo shot. Oh how I thought everything was okay, like when we went to the doctor they said no you not pregnant but come back tomorrow bc we was waiting on the medicine to come I thought everything was good, my parents didn’t know and plus they thought I didn’t do anything wrong. So what had happen was I got a called after I passed to get my license me and my mother celebrated about my license she even took me to get some ice cream. After that she drop me off at our house and we didn’t have cell phones we had house phone so I looked on the caller I.d. box and the doctor office call me. I’m like why they call, I listen to the voicemail and tears came down my face, my heart beat faster and my grandad Buster looked at me and said what’s wrong did someone die, I said granddaddy I’m pregnant he said awww shut you’ll be alright. I had to go back to the doctor office tomorrow and mom is taking me , I had to go tell the truth. Walking down the street trying to cover up my story but how can you cover up pregnancy, how can you be a parent this young oh what I put myself into. I’m at my aunt house and everyone is here I hope my momma will talk to me in private. Here I go, momma can I talk to you, my auntie spoke up first what’s wrong with you child did a boy break up with you i said no auntie I just need to talk to momma, auntie said well we All family what’s going it’s about 5 people at the table and my auntie want me to tell her, everyone else what’s wrong this made me more nervous. But here it goes momma with tears coming down my face now my step dad turn around and they all stop playing cards I’m pregnant…….. What! My step dad says well say goodbye to your friends, no more hanging out, no more going to the mall that hurted what is he talking about and than the only words out of my momma mouth was it’s your responsibility. As I walk back home with tears in my eyes what is my responsibility the only thing I know is to do my homework, do my chores before I go outside, what does she mean this is my responsibility?
I am a Living testimony for Jesus Christ this blog will continue.
The Bible says “There’s is none who does good, no not one (Rom 3:12).